Monday, April 9
hello world & whoever who reads this old, outdated blog.

relink me at www.xanga.com/lovechangedme

i think i've had it for abt a month oready. i wanted to keep it private, but yeah, after much tot, wtheck. plus i want my friends to know what's big & small in my life now, & the blog pretty much covers a heck lot, esp since i take a whole load of pictures now, & xanga is so much faster when it comes to uploading pics.

in my opinion, xanga is so much better, tho a bit less user-friendly than blogger. but once u've got the hang of it, deco-ing ur blog is so much easier. & i dont see much of the need to use photoshop since xanga has this picture border functions & it's so much cooler. & for all those cam-whoring peeps, xanga's uploading pics speed is two times as fast. & xanga actually keeps an archive of all ur pics so that you can put them up again in future without looking for the picture again in yr com. AND, when you've uploaded all ur pics at once, u can actually pick and choose about where to put it, instead of having to drag all the pictures down to their destination like what blogger does.

and there are a larger range of font colours to choose from.

everything there is done so much faster. but one thing bad about xanga is that they dont have a list of ur entries, but just pages & pages of how it looked like when others read ur acc.( if you get what i mean)

so yes, im happier there. hahaha!

see you guys around.

kelly.
Sunday, March 25

tdy is cycling day! paris ris park with lil michelle... & daddy liem. hoho. after which, i've been invited to another party of some big shot of a family friend. wadevas, dont really care. just bring on the hotdogs!

whyyyy am i sucha glutton these days huh? and it's lent! tsk tsk, bad kelly!
but jason's party ystd was really cool. had a massive amount of hotdogs, taiwan sausages, prawns, stingray. whoa, it was good. i think church people might have realised that i may actually have a big appetite for a small person like myself.

ooh lent, a sacrifice right? hahahahahaha. i made 3 sacrifices, but have only managed to pull thru 1! wasnt suppose to watch any videos, then i went to catch flicks & continue using youtube. oooh btw, new link. www.dailymotion.com . quality's better than youtube, not as organised, & most of it is in spanish. so yeah, try your luck there.

back to sacrifices. 2nd was to not redraw money from bank for spending. i did, cos it was dam's bday celebrations. :( 3rd one was not to watch bleach. & I HAVENT! YAY! something to be proud of if i must say so myself. haha.

random picture while cycling.

ok, that's all.
tc everyone & have fun at school!


Thursday, March 15
a nice suprise to save my day.

the day started really bad. & i know i felt so gloomy in bed cos of the various sms-es i was receiving, heck i didnt want to leave my bed.

so when i was grumpily using the com at macs, bran came up fm behind & gave me this frm four leaves.

STRAWBERRY SHORTCAKE!

lol, it came with an ice pack. call me slow, but thats the first time i saw that method being used to keep the cake cold.
& we're almost done. (:
& wad came in the bag was this pouch. causal remarks didnt go unheard for he remembered i liked this lil shop at parkway that sold the cutest things, & i was just saying i wanted a hp pouch.
thank you, for making my day special.


Monday, March 12
well, oways wanted to put these up, but bran only uploaded them ystday. so here they are.

so bran went to the kitchen to look for food, leaving poor lil me, bored, & with a glass filled with water. & well, i was pretty damn bored. so i grabbed bran's cam & started snapping away. hoho, he came in 2 mins later, staring at me about how i could do something this.. this.. erm, INNOVATIVE!( ah what a better word to use instead of dumb.) just wanted to make it seem like i was underwater in some aquarium lah!

EVERYONE HAS THEIR MOMENTS ( of boredom) OK?! i just chose to make mine more.. '' INNOVATIVE''.

first shot. failed.

2nd shot. failed again. 3rd shot. im almost there.
4th shot, XD. looks like it a bit lah hor!


decided to put this up.

tho well, i think it consists mostly of materialistic stuff, still.. I LIKE!

1) hot pink desktop theme. (becomin pretty girly these days.)
2) AVRIL LAVIGNE cd. coming out, 17th april i think. but def, during those days. (actually, kinda tot she stopped writing music.)
3) that lime green & grey nike jacket. why? because i still dream about you.
4) strawberry shortcake.
5) nice shade of red dye for my hair. (seriously resisting the temptation of just dyeing my hair now. - looks at sam sadly-)
6) necklaces. i want more from DIVA. -wails- ok, diva is.. not a value-for-money shop. but still...
7) -WAILSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!-
8) -double wails-

& the only reason why i havent had at least those that i can, is bcos i'm down to $50 to last me the whoooooole month. (MONTH OF LENT : DONT WITHDRAW MONEY FM POSB.) must... ... sacrifice! must.endure.the.temptations!

maybe i should just stop visiting malls then.

& rcia home sessions are starting this week. yeah, i dont know what it's gonna be like .. but somehow.. just SOMEHOW, my whole bunch of friends got put in the same place as well, except for one person. LOL. i think last week's session was just damn funny, i wonder why i never blogged about it more. the 4 of us were just goffing around too much.
ok, back to the home sessions. AT FIRST, karen & i thought it was those 'visit-old-people- kinda homes. well, no. it just means that several kind catholics decide to open their homes to us so that we can get a feel of wad a catholic's life is about. & then since k & i still thought it was a old folks home, she said the funniest thing, ' so do i have to bring oranges every week? ' typing it now really doesnt make it that funny, but at that moment it was.

so e whole RCIA journey 56 batch were split in 4 grps( i think.) & well, my grp's name is called st clare(dont ask me abt the names of the others, i wont know/forgot/didnt bother remembering). & powerpt slides start showing with addresses of the homes. a home stated in ocean towers went up, & this girl at the back went ' isnt that in hong kong? ' -other girls snicker in the background-

& tmr will be a fineeeeee day (:

ps. i think im super outdated in terms of songs. just got addicted to MUSE's time is running out & chris daughtry's it's not over. -.- well, maybe that's why i have a sister. both of us were exchanging recent songs ystd. & well, hers to mine was a ratio of ard 8:1 .

love always,
kelly
Sunday, March 11
well, i guess the birthday party at intercontinental hotel had its own lil suprises for the birthday boy & guests.

memorable, yesterday was. eventful, to say the least.

the swim before the party was excellent. made bran,josh,heng & meli feel so pampered. & then the birthday boy came & i was in the shower bathing. -.-'' everyone outside went ' suprise! ' & i was in the gigantic toilet thinking ' oh f. KELLY, U DUMBASS. '

& then almost everyone had to head over to the gen meeting, with the exception of maria staying behind to study & jason,feli & meli gg for nathan something something's free concert. meeting went pretty smoothly & everything was pretty much settled by the night.

everyone later headed back there in cabs, & then the rest had to get the apple strudel.. cake. didnt matter to me since... i couldnt eat a damn thing anw. ok, outh update. the braces dont hurt as much anymore. it's just the ulcers that makes me so damn miserable, tho my two front teeth still ache whenever i try to bite first w them.

i thought the night was gonna end on a sour/sober note. but it didnt. thank God.

the alcohols started coming in & since FYI, i ended up watching a lot of youtube videos, movies etc. i decided not to drink alcohol for the whole of lent. well ystd was really.. very painful for me. but i lived. somehow, the rest still had the energy to go pubbing, & so they did, leaving gab, bran & i talking the night away.

& THEN, WE GOT CHASED OUT OF THE HOTEL. -.-

well to be more specific, 9 of us got kicked out of the hotel. this was.. after the rest came back fm their pubbing trip. sooo 9 of us, headed to esplanade at 3am , like blooody homeless pple but able to afford strbucks coffee, iced lemon tea, mineral water etc... we all intended to go back @ 7am. but well, 5 left & left bran, me, james & jonella feeding the mozzies. but when we got back to the hotel, we went into the deepest slumber(or at least i did!)

& soooooo, the end comes to an end with sis and i exchanging songs & bf stories.
Friday, March 9













signing off,
kelly


If you haven’t changed your mind
Then I want you by my side tonight
I’m so tired of always having to bluff
Everytime I think about you baby, I feel so young
If I could just tell you I miss you
It’s so hard to say I’m sorry

You see, I want to sing this song,
not for just anyone
but just for you
An endless story that keeps on shining
Always, I wanna show you, forever and ever

Memories of our time together
this way, they don’t go away
Once I knew that the warmth between us had disappeared,
gentle tears started to spread over my chest
This is not where it ends,
I’m missing you
please don’t let go of my hand
Wednesday, March 7
since poly is about to start, i'm working out & toning my body xD. & well, i've been cycling to bran's house most of the time these days. sooooooo what's the use of cycling all the way to eunos from tampines everyday & not knowing how much distance i cover right? so i go check the online street directory & i find out i cover 6.32km to his house. & so the total distance i cover everyday would be... 12.64km.

WAHLIAO I FEEL SO MAN! hahahahahhahahaha, -thinks of shania twain song-. man, i feel like a ... .... man! HAHAHAHAHAHA. ok coool, everyone should exercise. keep fit!!!

okay, so i have this time line i intend to follow, cos it'll mark all the major events in my life. these are the events i would bluntly say, that once they are over, if i leave this world i wont leave with any regrets. i guess you can say, these are the goals i have in my life at the moment, at this age that i am in anw.

in 2oo8-
i will be done with rcia. i think around may. then i'll get baptised! xD

by 2009-
i want to already have a 2 yr long relationship with bran.

in 2009-
i would have taken off my braces.

by 2010-
i hope to have an overseas attachment( i wana go USA.) fm my course.
(that's why i wanna work really hard)

& i would eventually be done with poly that year, at e age of.. 21?!

& then whether i manage to get an attachment in the US, i will go to US for a really long holiday, tho i really hope this part will be pushed forward. but by the looks of it, it aint gonna happen. :( guess i'll only see aaron after 3 yrs. BUT BUT, there are talks of e whole family coming back to visit! (:

in the meantime, all i can do is hope & save up.

i love this picture. i find the lighting very nice. LOL. i wonder if i'll still be friends with all of them by the time i'm.. 30? HMM. i mean, im trying to be realistic. i havent even seen 3/4 of classmates since olevel results day.

& im getting very frustrated about the pain i feel in my mouth. i guess tdy is better, cos there's less pain now, unlike YSTDAY! ystd was a killer. mom cooked fish & chips & i had to remove the crisp & swallow the fish. LIKE WTF!? how to enjoy a fish & chips meal.. without the crisp! -wails- & my smile is crooked. the only way it wont be if i do smile with my teeth showing. GRAH. im so not used to it. finefine, i'll wait for a week to be over. may the pain go away by then so i can eat solid food again!

but i shouldnt be complaining abt what i ate for dinner. got sick of porridge by the 2nd day. breakfast,lunch,dinner. breakfast,lunch,dinner. & cos porridge isnt very filling right, tue i had it for supper too. but but, tdy's menu is so much of an improvement of ystday! -oooh i sound like i live only to eat- tdy for brunch i had 'mee su-ah' ,& then mommy liem cooked for me cauliflower soup cos she knew i had braces.. AHHHHHH!FREAKING NICE! (describes both mommy liem & soup).. then came the fish & chips. sobs, i hope tmr will be good too! x)

ok so quit whining kelly, this is wad u asked for.

matilda & i. i think we were sec 3. & yea, i cant find the original copy anymore.
another art camp pic classic. & ms felicia low, who is really the best you can get to having a great teacher. you didnt get an award for nth anyway! (: hope mr juraimy gets it this year.

one of our emo pics.

black box opening. mrs leong & i. mrs leong, 5 yrs science teacher, drama supervisor, & confidant.

ms soo, me & ms wong. or mrs koh. or wadeva. HAHA. she's great lah, they both are.

& we end off with a pic fm the last day of schoool.

what i'll miss most, is the times i spent with these two.

kelly.

Monday, March 5
so it's lent.

& it's all making sacrifices. so my sacrifice this year would be

- not to watch youtube.
- not to watch bleach
- not to watch dvds/vcds/lcds/videotapes.

basically any kind of video lah, i cant watch.

i must keep to this. cos last year i made two sacrifices, 1) dont use my card, 2) no taxi rides.

& well, i did take taxi rides, just that didnt pay during that period. and i used my card to buy a book on the last two days of lent bcos i absent-mindedly.. forgot. -slaps forehead- ok so this year, i'm trying my best not to make the same dumb mistakes and forget abt my sacrifices.

tmr is posting day. i wonder what i'll get thru JAE.

kelly.
Sunday, March 4
today turned out pretty unexpectedly. i thought i had a rough idea of my day, i thought i'd be back home by 2. but i just got back. it is now, 8.25pm.

there is this false sense of security i have at the moment. & i guess, it saddens me, to a certain extent. people change, i have to remember that. i have to remember that not everyone is kind in the world. it is easier to be mean than nice. running away always seems like a more comfortable option that staying put. & hypocrites will always be in our midst, whether or not that refers to ourselves.

im just typing that to remind myself, really.

i'm almost done with bleach. 4 more episodes. then i'll be at the same pace, as the rest of the world.
Saturday, March 3
i think this is bran's hand.
& this is the finished products of my lil paint workshop with him. x) hilarious process and a whole load of memories.

kelly.

Thursday, March 1
every once in a while, i rant about missing my cousins, about wanting to go to the US. this is one of those moments again. oooh ,and the best part of not having a tagboard, is people cannot console me about missing them(cos that secretly makes me miss them more), or tell me to just 'shut it'. xD damn, i feel like removing that tagboard was a good idea.

cheryl just got her braces. she said she didnt feel any pain. but then again, i dont really trust her. cos i know when i asked marcus once whether pulling out teeth would be painful, he shrugged it off & said it didnt hurt a bit. then when i asked my sister the nxt day, she said it was traumtising to feel those 8 needles go thru her gum. thankfully, i never needed to pull out any teeth. but but, the lil brat did say that if she can tahan the pain, so can i. ah wells, i should correct that sentence soon. since.. she aint gonna be a lil brat anymore.

the more i talk to my cousins, my aunts/uncle there, the more i feel like just hopping on a plane there, like pronto. the more i think about, the more i feel the stronger urge to go there.

btw, braces this monday.

so anyway, the lil girl just went off to school. 11.28pm here, 7.28am there. i told her about what my future goal was, what i intended to do with my life. having a goal again, does make me give me seconds thoughts.. because i am afraid of failure, and disappointing myself, and others. nevertheless, it's something i'll work towards, and strive hard for. cos knowing me, only something like that would motivate me to work hard, or harder.

RCIA today was better than the last's.(thankfully!) 14 more mths & then i'll be baptised. that will be the day, i will defintely be looking forward to.
Wednesday, February 28
OK!

so i go on the ABC website, hoping to be able to watch the free viewings of the 3rd season of greys anatomy and what nots. some other website said there were ENTIRE episodes on the website, so i was feeling very excited, since well, i'm a big fan. (unfortunately,not big enough to bug causal friends to lend me the season 3 vcd) i reach the website, and they say the full viewing of the episodes can only be viewed by US residents.

talk about going global.
Tuesday, February 27
well, notice the change.

no more tagboard.

been wanting to delete it for the longest time, and i did so without much hestitation. was beginning to feel spam was really starting to find its home there. all the spam and unwanted msgs, just makes my blog look bad. well, for the msgs i did appreciate, i did reply them.

so wells, since loyal blog readers know me personally, you guys should know my email too. as for the other blog that sam, dam and i have, i'll update it soon.

just cycled to bedok reservoir, have chicken rice, then back. ok lah, my stamina is really bad! -makes mental note to cycle more.- my skin peeled a heck lot. but recovery is almost complete. -makes another mental note never to go to the beach without sunblock.- i kept looking at tp from where i sat. to think that was where i had my eyes on for like 2 years, before i set my sights at nyp.

ok well, have to go bathe now. gotta head to ikea to buy some frames. x)

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ok, i just came back from ikea. happily went to the cashier, wanted to use my card to pay & i get the shock of my life that it's declined. then i remember mommy dearest saying that she tried depositing some of my cny money today & happily pressed the wrong no 3 times. hence, i have to go to the bank tmr to reactivate it again. well, my blood was seriously boiling by that time. so bran did the sweetest thing & secretly went to buy me ice cream. (:

ok, end of entry.

kelly.
Monday, February 26
to all my dearest girls,

i miss the old KC days man. dam has started working again. -pouts- no more proper retail therapy now, i guess. i'm still waiting for sam to reply me to confirm the date for our bikini shopping. & matilda should be coming back from korea today rite? x)

i think i've got quite a few things to do now. edit & print some pictures, write mr j. his testimonial. ooh i hope he wins the award. actually, i don't really know how to start, i'm waiting for matilda to come back for me to ask her since she's already written for him. OOOOOH I HOPE HE WINS THE AWARD. x)

old KC days man, i miss them. i bet everyone does. but well, i seriously wont want to repeat the whole process again. i'm just looking forward to NYP now. ok, -starts squealing- i cant believe i got into the course i wanted. no seriously, after my lil setback of my olevel results, i was so damn demoralised, i had to live on the support that sam,dam & bran were giving me to pull me thru. even then, e day b4 my interview, i knew i was slowly giving my halfhearted effort. it was simply e thought of letting those 3 down that really helped me.

design. design. design.
OOOOOH I CANT WAIT FOR SCHOOL TO START!

the day i got the news, i smsed a good RCIA designer friend about it. & she had good news of her own. x) ahhhhhhhhh! i'm soooo excited for her. attachment in new york?! ooh i hope i get simliar opportunities in the future. -starts daydreaming- RCIA again this week, & meiyee will be MIA tmr. another biz trip to bangkok. i'll be praying for her safe journey home. RCIA on thur is gonna be boring without her. -pouts-

she left me with that tho. cos the previous week blank pieces of paper kept falling out( apparently, i put them there as bookmarks). well, so now, i can just underline them with my new.. highlighter-like colour pencil. x) i shall get her mrs fields cookies for the nxt, nxt rcia session.( 2 wks in a row on biz trips lah.)

my gastric flu is better now, almost gone i figure. xD as a lil reward, brannie went to donut factory & got me a dozen of them. -screams!- we ate 5 in like, 15 min i think. suprises like those touch me the most, esp after he waited 1 and a half hrs to get them. (pics up soon, after he gets back from 'pawning noobs' in bnet.)

thankfully,e gastric flu wasnt as bad as the last time. tho i still dont know where i got it, i missed out on a bbq & 4kgs of chicken cos of it. shucks.

& yeah yeah, i found my happiness in someone. we're happy. loyal blog readers should have found out by now. i dont think i need to write it down myself,do i? and why all the negative remarks? it's not even constructive. we made a decision to be tgt, went ahead with it without seeking any approval from others. & we havent looked back since. so instead of showering us with negative criticism, why not you just shut your mouth & learn to be happy for us? isnt that what friends are suppose to do anw, give support?

love always,
kel

Sunday, February 25
dear diary,

i hyperventilated twice in two days. and everytime i do, it scares me.

kelly.
Saturday, February 24


Friday, February 23
ok, random photo update time. xDso this is.. whisky! my favourite golden retreiver. xD
and the doggie's owner, JAYYYPEEEE. this is the guy who helped me with my art port folio for nyp's digital media design. btw, I GOT IN! i dont sound as happy as i should cos the reality still hasnt set in quite yet. i guess i didnt mention much about the interview i went for earlier on thur last week bcos well, i felt like blogging abt it would get my hopes higher, and i didnt want to disappont anyone if i didnt get the course in the end.

so the hardwork did pay off in the end.the long nights & eyebags really made it all worth it. & to the people who encouraged me : my family in US, dam & sam who told me i would nail the interview, mom & of course, brannie.

& jaypee's sister danielle for helping me improve. xD her sketches are really kickass. -envious-

one of the cny visiting days. had to tickle mom for her to smile naturally for me. x) ash wednesday. waiting to go for supper so i snapped this picture.
& then.. there's brannie. i see this picture again & it looks like he has two gigantic boxing gloves. & i cleared his room 2 days ago & it kinda looked a bit like a girl's room.. NEATER. however, that was 2 days ago & well, i'm kinda expecting to be greeted by a messy room when i drop by again soon.

oh yeah, i might as well add on here :

to those who think im only gg NYP for bran, get your facts straight. tho yes, it's more appealing to go to school since he is there.. NYP's digital media design does offer the modules that i am interested in. & well, TP's moving images/interactive media design doesnt appeal to me anymore bcos of the negative feedback i got from some of TP's design students. no doubt NYP is regretably bloooody far away & TP is soooo much nearer... wad to do! i want to pursue my dreams wad.

but, thanks for the concern.

love always,

kelly

Thursday, February 22
ok. so this week is by far the busiest week i've had in months. totally back to back & all involving me waking up early & sleeping late.

today i'll be visiting my childhood friend and then visiting another relative in marine parade. gawd, why the heck do i have to visit so many pple?! even more, why the heck do i still have visiting to go to even tho chinese new year is over. GAHHHHH!- blooody irritated. even more irritated because i was initially suppose to go watch a movie after i visit my childhood friend before mom tells me that i STILL have to do more visiting. AIYAH!

at least mom's side doesnt have smokers like daddy's side. oh, i called my cousin a bitch ystd for being so rude. mom heard. all she went was ' haiyo!' and .. then she walked away. see, if my mom doesnt mind me calling my cousin that means tt my cousin is really something for my mom not to care abt my manners.

to add to that, i wanna bathe now. but mom doesnt let me cos she says i take too long to bathe, and she's in the rush. so while she's still doing a bit of other stuff, i cant go in. so then when she's done, she can go and bathe immediately. f lah. GRRRR. -enters major irritation mode-

putting that aside, tmr i'm gg clubbing with my friends cos there's gonna be free entry and drinks. but i'm not complaining much about that part unless i do get home smelling of alcohol.

sat, sam and i are gg to dam's house for a lil bbq in.. the afternoon b4 we head our separate ways again to our respective friends. gg to head to heng's place where 4kg of chicken will await me. -drools. -

ok, mom's out.

byebye.

kelly
Wednesday, February 21

this is jeremy, 1/4 of the total yeo siblings. i dont even have a pic of joel btw, cos he was really brushing me off so i didnt bother playing nice anymore.

always the one running up to me to poke me then run away.

: )

sucha sweetie.

at play with his uncle. i say 'his uncle' cos i cant remember his name.

well, there. a post dedicated just for my all-time fav boy. x)

love always,
kelly


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